One of the significant experiences I had at 2013.

Saturday night I had a walking meditation in which I focused on 2 aspects of healing energy I am working with.

  • A mother – goddess healing energy I connected to first in a healing course at 2003
  • A golden – angel light healing energy I connected during healing sessions on cancer patients.

Both are aspects of healing energy I connected to when doing Reiki, healing sessions and at that point in time I thought only one of them is Reiki -and the other is something else but today I realize I do not really know and there are many rays of healing lights – even though it frustrates my analytical mind, the ‘not knowing ‘ I just allow what energy needed to come forth.

Each has its own vibration color and feeling. So anyway to the point: on Sunday I decided to work with the mother aspect energy – I kind of had a talk during the drive to work with this energy aspect asking it what it is and how can I deepen my understanding of it, the answer I got is to practice all day this meditation, and this will start a process for me.

About the meditation – the idea for this meditation I got from my brother – when we both did the Reiki II course almost 20 years back he told me he had a deep experience – instead of putting his hands on himself he just asked the energy to come to him and he just lay there absorbed in its healing light.

So I tried to do it like that I asked for this healing energy – felt its motherly warmth – love hugging me, and then I felt my awareness shift focusing more on my back side, different feelings came and went, and I felt some stress released, emotions released etc, and then some freedom.

Then during my work day in the office I focused a bit on this energy a few times, and then driving back home I did the exercise again and again felt it on my back side of my heart chakra and then came to a deep realization – I know what does “Meditation on the Self” means.

I just focus on the feeling of me inside my own body – not a specific part, generally, it will be around the heart, sometimes in, sometimes out, sometimes just the feeling of my inner core, and sometimes just me. The “me” that is me 馃槍

The feeling is very restful and less conflicting than other methods I am doing focusing on different body parts. Chakra or outside object.

now when writing these lines I realize this might be strange to somebody reading this, and I can’t really convey the experience but this was a real realization, when in the yoga scripture they said meditate on the self as part of a higher way to meditate I tried but I did not understand or grasp it like I now do.

This is really something else.

Thats it just wanted to share and log my realization 馃檹馃徎 for reading 馃檹馃徎 for listening 鉂わ笍.